And I lament…

If somebody asks me what I think is the scariest thing in life,

I’d say it’s the day we lose our loved ones.

No matter how bad you pray, how bad you hope, when it’s time for them to go, they’ll go…

…without even asking how you’d feel.

8 years ago one of my closest dear ones lost his father. I was so brokenhearted, not only because his father died, but because I didn’t want him to have lost his Dad, I hated to see him trying to hide his sadness.

Few years later, another best friend of mine lost his father too. And I could only give him my biggest hug and trying to hid my tears seeing his mom’s face.

And now today, yet another best friend of mine lost hers.

She’s strong as she always has been, but as a friend who loves her, I hate to see that she has to go through this situation.

And what scares me the most is, I realize now that I will never be ready.

What would I do if it happens to me?

I guess the safest answer would be…

…cherish their presence, say I love you everyday, and don’t be too proud to say you’re sorry.

‘Cause when they’re gone, they’re gone.

Without even asking how you’d feel.

To my dearest friend Ardelia, HOBAH loves you. You’re an amazing daughter and your Dad would be so proud seeing you grow from above. God bless.

The ache I feel inside
Is where the life has left your eyes
I’m alone for our last goodbye
But you’re free

I remember you like yesterday, yesterday
I still can’t believe you’re gone, oh…
I remember you like yesterday, yesterday
And until I’m with you, I’ll carry on

 -Switchfoot, Yesterdays-


  1. Don’t bother to get ready, because you will never be ready. Loosing someone become unbearable when you think about it while the person still around. The fears itself will eat you up alive, inside out. Fears stolen all the joy and precious moments from you to share and spend with your loved ones.

    When the moments come, He will make it bearable for you, and somehow even though everything will not be the same ever again, you still alive (to survive and well, that’s another case).

    And when the sadness and the lost feeling will become unbearable, as a person of faith, we should believe that in one fine day, we’ll see each other again.

    So it should never be goodbye, tep. It should be ’till we meet again.

    Warnings: *All things above easier written and said than done”

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